I love everything about my life...the good and bad times...this page is for me to express myself through my emotions and thoughts...Also to show things that I like and am interested in...I am a mother or 2 wonderful boys and 1 Fantastic Girl...Married life is hard but it is worth all the troubles to be with the one you love...Enjoy my posts as I will be expressing myself on these pages.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Observation Day #1

On September 22, 2010  I observed in an Elementary school for my Intro to Education class, it was such a great day..

I had to leave my house by 6:30 am to get there by 8:30am Utah time.  As I entered the school I got super nervous, and writting Mrs. Dalton on my name tag was weird, because thinking about being called Mrs. Dalton was super crazy. 

The teacher was not there when I entered the room, but I noticed so much going on in her class room.  I observed in a 2nd grade class.  I counted the desks and there were 22 with names on them.  I was even more scared at this point because there were 22 little kids I was going to be watching all day.  And I would be incharge of them for at least a portion of the day.  AHHH

When class started I introduced myself to the class and then allowed 2 questions...There was one little girl that was so interested in me that she asked me questions all day long.  The class began, I got to walk around and see what they were working on and how they did their morning work...It was very fun to stop and help the ones that asked for it and just see how very smart 2nd graders are. 

The class was always moving, there was always something going on and the day had barely began.  Recess was at 10:30 and I was never so happy for a moment to myself.  I got to eat an apple during recess and then back inside for more centers, and reading groups.  Centers were hard because I had to focus on each group and also the class as a whole.  The teacher I was observing was doing reading groups while centers happened.  After centers it was time to get ready for lunch.  They all washed up and we left for lunch.  I stood in the line with them as the teacher went to the restroom...After they all went through the line I was able to leave the with the cafeteria monitor and go to the teacher's lounge for lunch...I had turkey and stuffing, it was a meal I got in the healthy choice aisle at the store...I also had a pepsi because I needed some cafenine because I was drained and I still had 2.5 hours left. 

After lunch was a movie to calm down and then math time.  The kids were learning how to measure in inches and feet.  It was very fun to help them jump on the rug and measure how far they jumped.  Then more individual work.  This day happened to be Library day for the class so I got to take ALL 22 children to the library by myself...2 lines, one boys one girls.  We walked to the library and the kids entered.  I stayed with them becasue I was not directed otherwise.  The kids got to hear a story from the librarian and then check out books.  After that it was supposed to be recess time at 2:15 but they were having a fire drill..  Man it was a crazy one.  The first of the year so all the kids ran to the fence and the gas was wet so they were slipping and not listening.  In the end it worked out and then the class had their recess. 
After recess it was time for more individual work and I got to help some students edit the journal entries they were working on.  that was very fun, because I got to see how they write and the mistakes that they make are so cute. 

Finally, at 3:10 it was time to get ready to go home.  They cleaned up the room and got stickers on their daily sheets for their behavior, depending on what color their picture was on, on the discipline chart.  It was fun.  Then at 3:30 the bell rang and each row of students were dismissed and It was over.  The teacher filled out my paper and I was on my way home.
Man it was a long and exhausting day but I had so much fun and it helped me realize that I am in the right major, I am so excited to get my degree and begin teaching.  That is my experience in a 2nd grade class...next time it will be in an intermediate school.  We will see how that one goes.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Cleaning Adventure.

So this last week I decided to have a great cleaning adventure...I planned to go through everyroom in my house and throw away, donate or just plan get rid of everything that was either broken, or not used anymore.

It began on Monday the 9th...with a trip to the store to buy some cleaning supplies and organization things...well I found no organization things that would help me that were at a price I would pay..so I just got cleaning supplies and came home to begin the cleaning.

So day 1 started out slow...A little bit of cleaning the toys and clothing of the kids.  also did the living room and the bathrooms. Not too much junk there because I don't much care for clutter.  and hate looking at all the stuff just sitting around.

Day 2.  Began the real work.  I went through all the toys and organized them in spots for all and moved all the boy's toys to thier shared room...to get the other room ready to Lydia.  I also went through all the clothes...if they didn't fit the kids or were holey or just plain I hated them they were put in their designated areas. 

Day 3 Lydia's room...I moved all the stuff around and made sure that everything in there was only for my little lady.  I know the room is still blue but not for too much longer...it is all organized for her and easily understood by all people that come in...Also going to be where my mom will be staying to glad I got it organized. Also the hall closet, just needed a little organization.

Day 4 was the laundry room...Now that was a feet.  I took everything out of the closet in there and also everything off the shelf above the wacher and dryer.  I really wish there were cupboards there instead of a darn shelf but oh well.  I threw away 3 bags worth of crap from that room alone...I am so glad everything sits in the cupboard or on the shelf instead of all over the place on the washer and dryer.  I am going to be buying some buckets to put on top of the washer and dryer for clothing...each on will be labeled with our names so that it makes things more organized...The closet looks so nice and I know where everything is. 

Day 5 was the Kitchen.  MAN oh MAN!  I had a ton of crap in there....my pantry is all organized and I can see what I have and what I need...the cupboards are all organized...Also the fridge was cleaned out and I found that we never eat leftovers here in our house...they just sit in the fridge until I throw them away...so we need to change that.  But anyway...The cupboards were messy and we had too many glasses for the space that we have.  I moved all the tuperware to a new cupboard and threw away 4 appliances that don't even work.  2 can openers a broken waffle iron and broken george forman grill thing...I also threw out old rust pans that I never use.  I will be buying new pans threwout the year...Maybe that will be on my Christmas list too...But I got the whole house clean and organized.  except my room...I feel like I did a great job on the rest of the house so my room can wait for a little while.  There is not too much stuff in there that will be thrown our ot donated.  Except clothes...and I am not quite ready to give up on fitting into some of them, just yet. 

So that is my cleaning adventure.  lots of cleaning and organizing.  6 bags of garbage, 2 bags to donate and a bunch of dirty cleaning rags from cleaning My house is very nice.

Then on Saturday night I had Jaymes's parents over for dinner and his Dad DJ said...did the cleaning fairy come?  because the hosue is very clean and smells great...I was like NO, I am the cleaning fairy...hehe.

Yay for cleaning and having a good time doing it.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Adventures at the Dentist #2

Well On Saturday the 17th I took Adam to a pediatric dentist so that we can do something about his 9 cavities....First off I feel like such a shitty mom for not getting them fixed sooner and for not preventing them better in the first place..

Ok so things started out good....Adam was super excited to go and everything was wonderful...

We got there to fill out paperwork and Adam played with the trian set they had and watched cartoon network and was more than happy to be there.

Then it was his turn to go back...that is where shit started..

He didn't want to give up playing with the trains...then he finally got back there and in the chair.  They put the bib thing on him and he was fine...Unfortuately the TV they had in the room was broken so he was dissappointed once again.  about not being able to watch a show...Then the Nurse said that she needed to try to get X-rays..I told her that is where shit hit the fan at the last place...She said we will try..
As soon as she brought out the damn shield thing Adam was done...He first off had a sunburn on his shoulders so the thing hurt and he remembered the things that she was trying to put in his mouth..She didn't even get them near his mouth..she showed him them and that was it...No more happy Adam...he instantly said I NEED THROW UP IN POTTY!
The Lady put everything away after that.
I took him to the bathroom and talked to him about being a big boy and he would get a new tooth brush and a prize..He was happy again...Well then back in the chair...The dentist was doing work on a girl next door and it was going to be 20 minutes before he was done...So they let Adam go back and play while we waited...BAD IDEA!

When it was his turn again He was soooo not in the mood for it...He screamed and yelled...and ran around...I was starting to have a break down...
The Dentist followed Adam and grabbed him...Picked him up and placed him in the chair...I held his feet so he didn't kick the dentist while he looked in Adam's mouth.  Adam was screaming the wholoe time so his mouth was open enough for the Dentist to get a quick look...

After he was done..the Dentist let Adam go back to the waiting room and play while he talked to me..

That is where I broke down...I just started crying and was sooo embarassed by Adam's behavior..I know it is just because of the other guy that made it this way BUT...I felt like I had failed as a parent...SO EMBARASSED.

The Dentist told me that He will have to put Adam to sleep to fix the problems that he has and that is fine..It needs to be done...We will haev to go to Vegas to a surgery center and they will put Adam under to get X-Rays and to crowns on the back teeth..and fillings on the front 2 since they will be ne of the first to fall out...The crowns are necessary because you lose the molars later in life than the front ones.

So I was told to call if I have not heard form them by Thursday to schedule a surgery day....It will be on a Wed...in Vegas at 7am.  Not sure when yet..Think I am going to ask to wait until beginning of September so my mom will be here and we can afford to just stay Tuesday Night in Vegas...
So this is me frustrated and embarassed

What a day...and it was only a little over an hour of my day...AHHHHH!

I will be so glad when this whole experience is over and we can keep Adam's teeth extra clean and teach him that the dentist is not bad if you take care of your teeth..

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Project 365 Update

I added that last 7 days to my Photobucket page if anyone wants to check them out....you can comment on them here if you want to...I am so proud of myself for keeping up with this...I do need to find more things to take pictures of except my children...but I love taking pics of them..it documents their lives...and they will not have a hard time finding a childhoood picture in the future...

So here is the link...Hope you all enjoy it!


Saturday, July 10, 2010

Project 365

Well I added all my profect 365 photos to photobucket...Thanks for the great idea Angee...I wanted a way for you to see them too...

so here they are...I will slowly update descriptions on each one..


Friday, July 9, 2010

Adventures at the Dentist.

Well I had been waiting to take Adam to the dentist..but just couldn't wait anymore...I finally got him an appointment...it was on Monday July 5th... I had to take him to a new dentist because the old one does not our insurance.
I took him in and first thing I noticed was that they didn't have any toys or books in the waiting room...  Strike 1...

Then when they called him back there was a screen in front of the chair and he was VERY excited that he was going to be able to watch TV while there...Then the lady said "Oh no, that is not a TV...Everyone thinks that."  Adam was very upset that there was not going to be a show for him to watch...that is the one thing he liked about the old dentist....There was also not chair for me to sit in...I had to stand in the corner of the room.
Strike 2...

The dentist finally came in and looked at Adam's teeth...He found that he has 9 cavities...that really sucks because I do brush his teeth...but oh well...Then Dentist wanted some X-Rays...It just sounded like a bad idea...So in comes the lady to do the X-Rays...Adam has a very sensitive gag reflex...and the things they put in your month to x-ray were not helping him out..He kept pushing them out with his tongue and crying because he didn't want to do it anymore....after about 7 tries...The lady was kind of rude at this point because Adam would not keep the thing in is mouth...She even yelled at him...Well he told her that he was going to throw up and she said "No, Your not...this is not hard you just have to do what I say."

I told the lady that he really was going to throw up...He knows when he is...he understands his body...She just kept telling me and him that he was fine and HAD to do this X-Ray...I finally got very upset and said "Look he is going to throw up so you better move and let him up or you will have vomit on you and the chair."  She finally listened to me and moved...Adam went straight to the sink and threw up...The lady was like I guess you were right and We are not going to get these X-Rays...

Strike 3...

The dentist came back in and told me that he can not see Adam because he is uncooperative...
So he gave me the number to a pediatric Dentist here in town that takes my insurance...so Adam has an appointment there on the 17th...We will see how that one goes...

An uncooperative kid...well what the hell to that expect?  He is 4 and there was no entertainment and they are trying to shove things in his mouth that are uncomfortable...What ever...I am so glad that we have another option and can take him to a dentist that will be able to understand that he is a kid and new to dentists.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

June 2010

Well June is almost over...Tomorrow is the last day of June and we have had a great month...We have had our wonderful little girl home all month and the boys absolutely love her...Tonight I am going to see Twilight: Eclipse...I am so excited...I have been waiting so long for this movie...Well that is about all.  I will post some pics sometime this week.  The Fourth of July is going to be great..the In-laws just got a new pool for their backyard...I am excited to be able to swim in it..  Pics later on.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Men know they are in trouble

So I was very upset with my hubby yesterday...he slept from 430 to 11 pm and then got up and watched some shows on the internet and went back to bed around 1am...just so he could get up at 5 to go to work...well I was mad because we have 3 children...and I take care of them ALL day and would love a little break or some help when he gets home from work....but I got over it and we talked about his sleeping habits...long story short...Today when he got home from work he brought me 2 Twilight posters...He said that he thought I deserved them...It made me very happy...I love it when he thinks of me when he is out and about....
I totally think that Men know that they were in a bunch of trouble the day before and bring gift home to make up for that thing...It is ok but I didn't even tell him I was mad in the first place...I lvoe that guy so darn much...even if he gets on my nerves from time to time...

XOXO  Love you Honey!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

The Adventures of Breastfeeding...#1

Ok so I am breastfeeding my baby Lydia...and things are going very well...but I have learned that I have something called forceful let-down...This means that my mikl comes down the ducts very fast and can make my baby cough and choke on it...I have had to change a few things about how I am positioning her and how I pump...She has to be more upright and I have to try and not stimilate my breast too much while she she not feeding...This is not working...The milk just produces...I am like a cow...I am loving every minute of it...Yes it is complicated but I am getting the hang of it and Life is easier with out having to mix formula and wash all those darn bottles...I went to the WIC office today to get a breastpump from them and it is a manual one...Kind of strange to me...I am not sure if I like it all that much...The lady told me to just pump inbetween Lydia feeding..so if she nurses every 3 hours then I have to pump every 1.5 hours.  Kind of seems like that will make me have even MORE milk...isn't the idea to get it on a schedule and that way I can freeze some milk for times I am not with her and then I can nurse her when she is with me...which is most of the time...But hey I deserve a break too....And I have no idea how to make it so I can have a Margarita...Cuz I really really want one...I am thinking I will make sure I have plenty of milk in the freezer and then have a drink and pump my breasts for that day after...I just don't know how long the alochol is in the milk..I guess more research is needed...Well anyway the point of this post.  An update...I was getting ready to take a shower and looked into the mirror as I walked past it to get into the shower...And I saw BLUE lines all over my chest....I mean all my veins were very visible and I could trace them if I wanted to...It was CRAZY!  I did not take a picture because that would be weird...But there is nothing like breastfeeding and then seeing crazy veins in your breasts...It kind of freaked me out...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Alright I have not been updating this thing like I should be...but I have been a little busy with a new baby and 2 other children.  Also housework, shopping and just everyday life with children. 

So first off last time I updated I said I was going to be 37 weeks on Sunday and go to the Doctor on Tuesday.  Well I went to the doctor on Tuesday and my heart rate was 140 so my doctor sent me straight to the hospital for some fluids and tests...I ended up staying over night and was contracting slightly all night...but not enough to keep me there...So as the doctor was headed to discharge me I decided to do some squats and running in place.  then relaxed and felt some wetness down there...so I had my favorite Nurse check to see if it was amniotic fluid or just discharge.  And Guess what it was Amniotic fluid so they started the pitocin.
  You don't need to know the rest of the story...so Lydia Gwen was born at 9:18 pm on May 26, 2010...
       weighing 6 lbs 9 oz and measuring 20 inches long.

On to the boys.  Adam is getting super big and enjoying having a little sister.  He is also being a big help with everything.  He helps me with Kyle and helps me clean up the house.  He does pick on Kyle sometimes but that is normal for kids.  so Life with him is going good.

Not sure what this face is about but he was so happy this day.  June 2nd

Kyle is 2 and such a little butt...he is totally in the terrible 2 stage...he wants everything his way and no other way.  He also learned how to climb out of his crib and I decided to have him sleep in his toddler bed but he hates going to sleep in it...he likes the fact that he can get out when ever HE wants...So I am up late with him but I love him.

Bath time is great fun!  Kyle loves to play with this bottle just to pour it on his head...hey anything to get his hair wet.

So that is what is going on in my life...Cleaning, Cooking, and Kids...it is great...it makes me tired but I am dealing with it one day at a time...Well that is it for now...I am hoping to post more often...now and keep people up to date with my life...this is an easy way for everyone to know how things are going in my life.

Love you all!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

The Wonders of Life...

Well time for an update...I am going to try and add a post at least once a week...not sure if it will happen but I think I can handle it...Just need to get into a schedule and with a baby coming I think I can do that...So things have been going pretty good....For a long time I was stressed about how to pay the bills and how we were going to pay for the new little one that is one the way...Well Jaymes got a job about 2 weeks ago and this week he will get is first full paycheck...I am excited that we are able to pay our own bills and not buy the extra things that we need...Diapers are going to be something that we buy a lot of...I hope to get Little Kyle potty trained sometime soon...then no more diapers for him...

So the pregnancy thing is sucking right now...I am uncomfortable all the time and there is just so much pressure on my abdomen...Walking towards the end of the day is a challenge...also getting out of bed is hard to do as well...I will be 37 weeks on Sunday and my next doctor appointment is on Tuesday..so we will see what he says...June is right around the corner but it it getting harder and harder to do things these days...

My children are such nuts that it seems like they have new ideas and different views on life everyday...I am loving it but sometimes it is hard to take care of them and be pregnant...I am very excited to have this baby and just have to worry about taking care of the kids and less on how crappy I feel...

So life has been good lately...school is done and now it is time to enjoy the down time until school begins again....I will def post when baby comes and it will be great to have her here...Well that is it...Life is good and baby is coming soon...

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


So toady started out a good day....now it has all gone to SHIT!   Jaymes got the phone call we have been waiting a week for and of course bad news once again!   Still not JOI can;t get B...I hate this...We are almost out of money...like we have $100..to our name and stuff that needs to be bought...we will soon be completely out of money and have no freaking way to buy anything we need other than food...that is great but we will need things that food stamps can't buy...Diapers, laundry soap, garbabge bags, shampoo, conditioner, soap, everything that we all need to live.  and if we don't get a job soon we will not have water, phone, cable, or internet.  I hate this...it makes me feel useless..I can't do anything...I can't get a job...no one will hire me...I am 33.5 weeks pregnant...right now my stress level is probably a 12 out of 10 and that is not good...I am sure my blood pressure is high right now too...I am just freaking out...WHAT THE HELL ARE WE GONNA DO???????  We can't rely on other people to pay our bills...I just don't know what to do anymore...All I can do is try to keep calm and not cry over this but man this really sucks...I just want to go somewhere where I can punch something and scream!   All I can do is clean the house and pretend nothing is wrong...just keep up what I am doing and keep the signs of stress inside...What else can I do?  I hate money, I hate that there are no Damn jobs, and I hate that it just seems like I am the only one that cares or is stressed by this...Well that is it...I am still stressed but at least I know what I am stressed about...FUCK SHIT FUCK!   AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!    WHAT THE HELL ARE WE GONNA DO???

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Busy times

Well for the next 4 weeks things are pretty busy...it is nice to have things to do to keep my mind off the fact that I only have 7 weeks until baby Lydia is due...

Yesterday we had a Lia Sophia party at my house and Glady has decided to sell Lia Sophia...then tomorrow is Kyle's birthday party.  Hius actual birthday is on Wednesday the 28th...Then on Saturday May 1st..a baby shower for me and Evelyn in Las Vegas...The next week it Jaymes's birthday and Mother's Day...then a baby shower for me on the 15th..at my house...Finally I have one last party on the 22nd for a pampered chef party at a friends house....Oh yea and a dr appointment for Kyle in Vegas May 24th and a breastfeeding class on May 25th...In between all this there are finals for school and registering Jaymes for his classes...WOW WOW WOW....Everything just bunched up in the same month...but it is good because it will make time go by faster...

Jaymes has a new/old friend that has been hang out with him lately but it is kind of annoying because this friend has no kids and thinks Jaymes can do things whenever he wants...That is very much not he case...We need to have a more advance notice of doing things than normal people because we have to work around the family schedule...and right now things are pretty busy...It is great he has a friend I just wish that friend would realize that we have a family and family comes first.

Ok I am done..just needed to write everything down and than is great to have it all out so I can see what is going on..

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Just Frustrated.

I guess this is the story of my life...I am always frustrated about something.  these days it comes more and more.  I hate how my husband sits in the bed room all day and does nothing, while I am taking care of the kids, the house and doing my homework.  While taking care of everything else.  Then plannign bday parties, pictures, dr appointments and WIC appointments how am I supposed to get everything done alone.  If I go away from the hosue for the day or even just a few hours I come home and it looks like a tornado has gone through my house. 
Then today to top it all off...I was enjoying a little nap on the couch while the kids were watching a movie and behaving and Dad of course was in the bedroom...and then he comes out and says he has to go pick up Ian and Jayk.  both at the same time...that makes 5 smelly boys in my house at the same time...then I have to deal with all three kids because Jayk and Jaymes are in the bedroom...Or the kids come in the bedroom and destroy everything that is put up...because Jaymes and Jayk don't watch them.   Then when Jayk is here I feel like I am invisible.  They sit in the same room as me and totally ignore the fact that I am there...I cook dinner and they eat it and leave me to clean it up...I am 32.5 weeks pregnant and VERY tired.  I feel like I have no energy...But still I have to do everything like normal.  I am just plan frustrated with it all and very tired.  I just need a day off...but then if I leave the house I have twice the stuff to do when I get back...So what the hell!!!  AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!   this is how I freaking feel...!  just plain blah and unwanted.  All i am good for it making their lives better...no I guess making HIS life better.  I love my hubby but sometimes I am just so darn frustrated with everything...
Yea he had an interview on Monday...but then has not looked for any other jobs since then...he just waits to hear from the one joba nd then when they say no he goes to the next...but man we need income NOW!  I hate having to ask for help and hate how it is always ME asking for help or figuring out how to make things work.  I need some help...I have too much on my plate right now and I am frustrated and stressed.  Me asking for help has made other people have issues and stress out and it make me mad that I have to make other peoplele's lives harder. 


Alright...now I am going to try to get some sleep while Jaymes and Jayk are in my bedroom taking louder than needed and one playing the computer and the other the XBOX...How is a girl to get any freaking rest?

Now the kids are up...How freaking wonderful!   I NEED A FREAKING BREAK!!!!! 

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Cranky Pregnant Girl!

OK so today I went to Wal Mart.  We needed things to make for dinner and then the basics...Milk, eggs, juice.  So I got there and had everything in my cart.  I had it all seperated between WIC items and regular items.  (Yes, we have WIC and I am not afraid to say it because I think that white Americans need to get stuff they need just as much as mexicans)....Ok so I go to lane 5 which is a lane that you can do Wic on...I load all my stuff on the belt and tell them that the front part is WIC...Then she tries to run my card and the machine is not working...so she tells me that I am going to have to load ALL my stuff back into my cart and go tot lane 13...I am like Hell NO...But she helped me and I moved to stand in line 13....I was in lane 5 for 25 minutes...it sucked!   OK so off to lane 13 and they run my card and tell me that the entire WIC system is down!  What the HELL!!  I just loaded all my stuff back into my cart and now I don't get it?  This is stuff I need...Milk, Juice, Eggs, apples, and cheese...along with other stuff...I am pissed now...I ask them if the debit card stuff is working just so I know...they are like Oh Yes, Mame...Ok so we start scanning my stuff that is not WIC...Everything WIC had to be put back...I haev been in this like for like 15 minutes and this guy is sooooo slow at checking...There are two teens behind me with ONE item!  ONE!  I am cranky already...31 weeks pregnant and I had to load all my stuff back into the cart and back onto the belt...
So this little TWIT! says  "MAN, this it taking so freaking long!" he is standing right next to me at the little place where you swipe your card....I turn arond and tell him.  "EXCUSE ME!"  I am the one paying for stuff right now. You need to back off.  There is no need for you to be standing this close to me." 
He says, "Well I only have one item and I am in a hurry and this is taking FOREVER!"
Very frustrated now...I turn around and look at the other lanes that are open and up at Customer Service that has no one in line. and I said.  "WELL, if you have a problem with how long this is taking why the hell don't you go to one of the other lanes that are open, or the 10 items or less lane...You could also take it to Customer Service and they will be glad to help you."
He continues standing there and the girl with him says, "Well if she wasn't so fat she would have more space with you standing there."  She thinks I didn't hear her.  OH MAN I DID!!!
"EXCUSE ME!"  I said even more pissed off now.  "I am pregnant, and at least I am not buying a stupid movie that I am standing in line for 20 minutes for when there are other lanes open.  I know you are not in this line to buy cigarettes, because you are not old enough."  I turned around told the cashier guy that my order was on Debit and he smiled at me.  Then when I was all done and ready to go the cashier tells me that he is sorry for the long wait and the inconvience.  I say.  "The only inconvience is that people don't have patients and manners."   Then I walked out of the store...

MAN I WAS PISSED!!!   I hate when idiots are in line behind you...I was in line a total of 45 minutes, and loaded the stuff into my cart and onto the belt thing twice...So I was at a limit on patients...This this dumb teenager...  I am so glad I got to be the cranky pregnant girl today...It kind of made my day...Hope my blood pressure isn't too effected by this innocident.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Another Day

Well it is Monday...the beginning of April and there is a lot going on...Jaymes did not get the job he had an interview for so he is in St. George looking once again...He is even talking to a recruiter, that means there is not a lot of options around here.  So I am a little stressed about money, but I am trying to stay positive and hope that people will help us out when and if they can.  after the baby is born and I am cleared to work I think I will begin looking for a job...Hopefully I can find on that will work for my needs and schedule.

The next month and a half are crazy busy.  This week we just had Easter, On Wedneday we will be getting pictures done for Glady and then a bit of relaxing then Long Beach for Jaymes and his Dad.  On the 24th Glady is having a Lia Sophia party at my house and then the following week a baby shower for me and Evelyn.  May 7th is Jaymes birthday and then the following week is a baby shower at my house for my friends here in town that can not make it to Vegas.   Then finally a break...until baby comes...School is almost over for the semester and that means I need to get thigns in order for next year.  I need to register, apply for loans and turn in all the things that my new school needs. 

I feel like I never have time for me...but I will find time somewhere.  I will be losing weight after baby too...it will be fun and nice to finally get this weight off. 

I am still feeling stressed but things will get better...At least that is what I keep telling myself...Stay Positive!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Funny Story

Alright...so we go for drives almost every night to help the kids relax for bed and to have a little quality family time together in the car...well we were leaving the house last night for our drive and the garage door would not close...It got alomst all the way down and then would go right back up...Well Jaymes was upset and tried to fix it...I think he was trying to get it down for 20 minutes or so...He finally got it down but it will not go up now...it was misaligned but he fixed that.  now the tention spring is not tight enough to pull the door up. So we have to call the Landlord to have someone come and fix the spring...No big deal.
While Jaymes was trying to get the door down, Adam, Kyle and I were sitting in the car.  Adam decided he needed to call the garage door people and so he pretended to be talking on the phone to the people that could fix it.  He asked them if they could come and fix the door and if they were coming from St. George or Vegas.  It was so cute... He told me that they were coming on Monday from St. George with a new door to fix this one with...

It was very cute and I am amazed at how much he knows.  He knows that we have to call someone to come and fix it because it is something that Jaymes cannot fix himself...funny little story for an upsetting moment.

Friday, April 2, 2010


OK...yesterday my hubby had a job interview...they said tehy would either call him for the background check and drug test or send him a letter stating that he did not get the job...Well I am freaking out...they did not call today...maybe they will on Monday they did say within the next couple of days....but I am stressed about money...we only have a limited about in our bank account and bills are going to be due soon!  SHIT!!! there is also our son's birthday, gas in the cars, diapers, and otehr non food items that we will need...I am just freaking out..I know I should wait until Monday but shit we are in trouble...I can't get a job and all we can do is wait to see if he got this one...from the sounds of what the people said and how the interview went he should get the job...but then there is that chance that he will not...and I don't know what we will do if that happens...
The new baby is coming soon and I am afraid that we will be broke completely when she gets here...that is not good...I will be able to get a job 6 weeks after she is born and that will will but if my hubby doesn't have one before then I don't knwo what will happen...We will be screwed...
I have been feeling this a lot lately but I have been holding it in..now the money supply is very low and will not get us through the month...what the hell are we going to do?

I can't do anything about it...since no one will hire a girl that is 30 weeks pregnant...I should have gotten a job awhile ago but I thought that Jaymes would be able to get one a lot sooner than now...AHHHHHHHHHH

I guess I feel a little better but I am still freaking out...We NEED an income coming in..I hope Jaymes gets tha job he had the interview for yesterday..if not I think I might pop from stress...I need to relax but it is very hard to do..

once again...

Monday, March 29, 2010


for the past few days I have felt like crap...my head feels like it is in a vice grip and everytime I move it just gets worse..I know it is a sinius infection because it is very normal for me to get during pregnancy...on top of feeling yucky because I am stuffy and everything I am very stressed and overwhelmed.  There are so many thing that I want to do and other people want me to do that I just can't do them all.
I want to make cookies of Easter to give to everyone because I love baking and decorating cookies.  I also want to get my scrapbooking up to date...I am very behind...I try to have a page for every holiday each year and each fun event that happens but I am behind and have not even done Christmas 2009 yet. 
Schoolwork has my life...between my 10 assignments due each week I have to read a chapter for each class everyweek and sometimes two chapters for a class in one week...I also want to spend time with the family and get help my husband get a job.  There are just so many hours in the day.  I am 29 weeks pregnant and feeling the stress of the pregnancy...I sometimes wish it was over and baby Lydia was here...but then I think that I will be just as stressed and overwhelmed then as I am now.  School will be over before she gets here which will help out alot.  then I can maybe get others things done...A lot of scrapbooking will happen after school is done...

I guess I have just been feeling useless around here...I know I do the house work and keep the kids and everything happy and also keep everything running smoothly even though money is tight..I just feel like I amnot helping because I am bringing in no money...I hate it...and there are jobs that I can do but no one will hire me because I will jsut be gone in a few weeks anyway...I guess I just need to think positively but it is hard to do when everything is coming up and the money suply is short. 
We will need to pay the bills the next few month and also then baby is coming in June and we will have to buy diapers for her...Hopefully I get enought diapers at my baby showers to keep us a float until other things come along...

Now that my feelings are out and not bottled up inside I can get to work on some of this darn school work...I will be very happy when this semester is over and I can move to bigger and better things...

Saturday, March 27, 2010


Ok so this page was totally for Twilight news and sharing my love of Twilight with people...I think I will continue that but also add my life stuff along with it...I need some where I can write what I feel and express myself without causing a mess in the porcess.  Have a place to let it all out will benefit me and my family.  This will be like my stress reliever...

So today is March 27th...and my ex-step dad has been here since Monday...It is very frustrating that he is here...it just makes my life harder...He doesn't help and just sits there when the kids are doing something they are not supposed to be doing....He complains about how much pain he is in because of his operation that happened over 2 years ago and I am just plain sick of him...He has not helped me in anyway except for waking the kids up super early!  and eating my food and drinking my soda...there is other stuff to drink...also he just leaves and thinks we will and should be home when he gets here...Excuse me this is my house!  not yours...I am so sick of him and will be very happy tomorrow when he leaves to go back to his Mommie's house...He thought that he was going to come here to Mesquite and get a job in a week...well that didn't happen...and I knew it wouldn't...My hubby has been looking for a job for over 6 months...Where does he think he woudl live anyway?  my house? HELL NO!!!   no no no FUCK NO!!!   he would not help and he would just take up space that I need for our new little one...I am pregnant and due in June...we have a three bedroom...and need the room for the baby...So he needs to leave...a visit is different but he thought I would invite him to stay...he is not family anymore and I don't have to be nice...I am a nice person but I still don't have to let him live here...I wish my mom lived closer but not him...My mom can come here and stay until she gets a place if that is her choice...because she is my MOM...and I know she will help me and Jaymes with bills and the family....But Jim needs to find himself a different place and needs to realize that we all don't care for him all that much...

OK that is so much better...I have that off my chest and can continue with my day...Schoolwork calls...

Saturday, January 2, 2010


Ok...WOW...I have not updated in so long...so much has been going on...With School and everything in my life I got all sucked up in life and didn't post...I am going to make it my resolution to post at least once a week.

Ok so New Moon came out and IT WAS AWESOME!!!   I have seen it twice and plan to go tomorrow with my Best Friend Lola...I am not dissappointed with the movie at all...Edward looks amazing and Jacob is wonderful...Taylor does a great job with is character and Kristen is absolutely amazing..She really got into the depressed Bella...Ok so there has been lost of stuff about Twilight out there...Idk if Breaking Dawn will be made but It better...I have heard that they have the contracts for one but not the other...but who knows until the officially announce it...Eclipse is upon us and I am guessing it will be Fabulous...Well that is about it for updating...I will alos be adding my personal things on this page so it will be about me and Twilight...Well Twilight is a part of my life...so I hope you all enjoy the day ahead and ckeck back for more posts...I will post things about Eclipse as I find them out...Good Night All!